All is well here. I'm living a quiet suburban life with my baby and her grandparents. I go to Tar.get and hang out on the block with neighbors who also have kids and are looking for adult interaction. I see people on the street and we say hello to each other. I typically run into someone I know outside of the house at least once a day. It is a community, and a much less anonymous life. The downsides include my complete lack of social life. That is something to work on.
I quit my job last week and am looking for jobs in this area. And once I am working, I will start looking for a home for me and Allie.
While apprehensive and overwhelmed, I'm admittedly excited about these changes. I'm feeling less guilty about it all. And a little less like a failure. I'm still unsure and lacking confidence in my decisions, but I feel like I might be getting to a better place with all of this.
Seeing Allie light up when she sees my parents is so wonderful. I'm really happy for her that she gets to know them and have them in her life. I didn't imagine that this would be a possibility, but it is and I'm trying to enjoy it all.
Allie is 5 months old. She looks to me like a big kid...head up, alert, curious about it all. She is a very happy girl, smiling all the time. We started cereal about 10 days ago because she started waking up multiple times in the night (ugh). She LOVES cereal and fruit, and is sleeping better again. I'm still breast feeding, but less often now that she's eating food too. I think I'm planning to move to formula in the next month. (I worry constantly about my milk supply...it's crazy that I torture myself all the time.)
She loves to experiment with making different noises. She fake coughs, and screeches, and giggles, and coos all the time. She thinks she is adding to the conversation by doing this while others are talking. She is still basically bald, but has started to grow some fuzz on the top of her head. She rolls over onto her belly very well but can't get back on her back and often throws up if on her stomach too long. She wants to crawl but can't seem to figure it out yet. No teeth yet, but she's been biting on everything and drooling for several weeks now. She loves to suck on her own toes. She pats the back of my neck while I hold her, and has recently started pulling my hair (hard!).
And then there's me. My shrink upped the Z dose a little bit because I still feel anxious at times. I think I'm doing pretty well overall and feel like I'm out of the depths of hell that was my existence 6 weeks ago. Exercise and sleep help a lot too, but I don't get enough of either. I'm just moving on one day at a time.
8 comments:
Oh I was hoping you would post an update! :) Everything sounds really good for you and Allie right now. Her happiness is a reflection of you Mom! I'm glad things are looking up and look forward to the next update.
You sound a lot better! I'm glad things are coming together for you and are that you are moving your life in the direction you want. Keep up the good work. Your daughter sounds like a healthy and smart little girl.
You sound better. I'm so glad. The change in job and scenery sounds like it has been and will continue to be a great decision for you. Good luck with the job hunt. Hugs to you.
Glad to hear from you, and glad you are doing well!
You really do sound better. So glad to hear it, and glad to hear you both are enjoying the suburban life. Hope the job hunt goes well - fast enough but not too fast - and you get something you feel great about!
I was so happy to see an update and even happier that you're doing so well :)
Congratulations on making those big changes and good luck on the new job search!
Yes, I am so glad you and Allie are doing well. Keep us posted!
I'm so glad you're back blogging. Glad to hear you and babe are doing so well.
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